A light at the end of the tunnel.

Alright.
My dear man (you know, the man I referred to in the last post. I'm just gonna call him "my mentor" from now on, since that's what the job's actually called) had me coming to work today, and we had a little talk about the benefits & duties of being a mentor.

You know what? It's pretty cool.

Because I get paid even better than I already had, and the duties are stuff that I've always wondered how to do, like listening to other teacher's session on tape, reading reports instead of making them, stuff like that. And he told me to come on Friday, when he'll be coming to a company class and conduct an oral survey. Basically he gets to ask the students what they really thought about their teacher and distribute chocolate and name cards while the teacher waits outside, nervous and increasingly panicked. For half hours' talk (not work), he gets paid as much as a teacher's 2-hour work.

He (and I would) also gets to do other cool stuff like giving workshops or random quizzes to other teachers, and go to a management meeting to "discuss" other teachers...and get paid for a holiday every year.
And the coolest of all, I get to pick the classes I want! Now I can teach these exotic classes like the Shangri-La or Regent ones that I've always wanted to teach.

But, of course, there are some tough things I'm still really nervous about, like helping other teachers solve their problems (WHOA there),
being responsible over teachers' quality,
getting involved in company decision-making,
and, most of all, showing to everyone (mostly myself) that I deserved this job.

I'm starting to calm down about this. Gradually.

P.S: My mentor told me he was freaked out too when he was first appointed. Which reminds me, I'm still quite upset about him leaving (because his new job's in travelling, so I won't be seeing as much of him). Seriously, I'm gonna miss him. He's a really good friend, a hell of a fun to be with, a little bit more special than any other guy friends I have. He has this really cool individual clothing style, too. When we finished today's talk about this mentor thing, I showed him these earrings I just bought, and he was not only interested, but also provide some fashion tips.
Where the hell am I going to find a guy like that?
Argh, this is too much of a change..