Stay There.

Don't lose it just yet.
Only a week to go. You can do this.
Everything you've been working on all this time is about to change you. Those 2 months of solitude, arrogance, and self-scrutinize...it's about to end. It's really going to end.
It's not like you've had hell though. It was an amusing 2 months, I dare say, with a lot of luck taking charge and a bit of companionship.
But now, as it's about to end, prepare to get your life back. Your normal, peaceful, geeky life like the one you used to have. Where you only need to worry about how to prepare for exams.
And all will be well. All mistakes you've made, assignments you've left, groups you've abandoned, health treatments you've missed (dentist? What's that?), family ties you've broken, friendships you've ruined (and shred to pieces, hello people-who-no-longer-talk-to-me, yes I missed you), everything will still (hopefully) be waiting to be repaired. You get to fix them all!

In just one week.

And after that, you can have all the things you so dearly missed...and if everything were really as good as you remembered, they'll all still be there for you. And I believe they are, and with a little bit of work, you can make them last for a long time.

Of course if you can't, try to make them last at least until May 6th, where you'll be leaving them again...

Ah my dear friends. You've no idea how I miss having a full interaction with you.

Never Thought About This Before.

There are two things about negativity that I hadn't known until about 6 months ago:

(1) In every situation, no matter how perfect it may seem, there's bound to be at least one negative way to look at it. Two if you look hard enough.

(2) Contrary to popular belief, pointing out the aforementioned negative perspective doesn't necessarily always lead to depression. When done very, very delicately and at the perfect time, it can even be something to laugh about.

Which is why, for a reason that remains to be a mystery, a person can actually be both pessimistic and hilarious at the same time.

What Is All This?

Why am I even doing this?
Why do I bother working for something I don't really see the feasibility of succeeding in?
Why can't I just settle in and start thinking of things that matters the most? Because I know, this isn't the ultimate thing that matters for me.

Am I really going to be satisfied, looking back?
Will I ever going to be satisfied, at all?

Why can't I just be content with I have?

Why must I push myself for more and more (and more)?

Because being ordinary is unacceptable.